The Unexpected Love Story

it's hurt to love someone and get used to all the beautiful things that you both shared then all of the sudden things change. I've been to a relationship where I knew that I love this girl, but I'm not so sure how much this girl can love me or if she can even really love me. We've been dating for months now and believe it or not we do things that a couple usually do and usually share, we talk about a lot of things, we shared our secrets and feelings, we totally shared everything nothing to hide.

I love everything about her, I love the way she smile, the way she laugh and I love how she make me feel when I am with her. I keep on loving her every day.

I've been to a lot of relationship in the past some last for months and years, but no one in those relationship that I could compare her, she is one and only, MY ONE AND ONLY.

She's my one and only because all that I felt for her we're all brand new to me. I didn't know that I could love deeper than I have love before and was actually was my first time dating someone that I am actually sure that I wanna spend my lifetime with, that one that I really want to marry, that one that I want to introduce to my family, the one that I can really be proud of having as my girl.

But unfortunately it wasn't always a sunny day for us, yes we do have some misunderstanding but we always manage to fix it a couple of minutes after, we both dont really want to be on that situation fighting over some petty things. One day she decided not to see me that I should be contented that I am able to text her or call her or if I'm not okay with she will start avoiding. I could do anything I already said what I needed to tell her, that I don't agree with her decision and all, but this is what she wanted. For me not being her official boyfriend I couldn't do more, I couldn't demand or anything for I am not her boyfriend.

Well she has an x boyfriend, whom I she really love but they broke apart due to some issues that deeply hurt her, but she is still willing to forgive that guy, if only he shows effort that he really wanted her, but that never happen, instead he keeps on hurting her, but that guy think that he was hurt the most, well guys like it or not, accept it or don't accept it. When we did something to hurt our girlfriend deeply over the years that you have been together and then they decided to leave us, most of us guys do this, we tend to point fingers to our girlfriend that it was their fault and not ours, we tend to say things that will made them feel guilty for leaving us and we never consider how much we have hurt them and all we can think about is our pride as a man that was left by our girlfriend, We even use our family, we show our family how bad we feel about the break up, but when we are outside and with friends damn we party all the way. Well most of the guys are like this, but some are not.

There are still some guys out there who are hopelessly romantic and dream for a love that never fade.

Well because of this x that girl that I am dating with decided not to see me.
She think that everyone will blame her for what will happen to her x boyfriend and she believe that she is to blame. She couldn't stand not to read text message or facebook post/message pertaining to her x boyfriend or her x boyfriend him self. Even how much she has been hurt emotionally of this guy, she couldn't move on. Some will definitely say this is nuts that she has all the reason and all the sign that she ask we're answer and she can't move on. Is it because of a guilty feelings that she has? I say no, even that we happen, if you will think about the past mistake that happen over and over again between them and words that shouldn't be said but was told to her and all of this happen again recently to her made by him, I would say she still has the right to move one and forget about him, even that we happen. I'm saying this because I'm the one who is involve.

Even if I have a friend with the same condition, I would definitely advice that she should go with someone who could take care of her, someone who can love her despite of all her negative side and mistakes, someone that could make her happy, if the other guys made her feel complete, happy and contented I will say go with him, you deserve to be happy.

So if you are reading this and you think you are in the same condition, if you have the same situation like the girl. You don't need to be a martyr over a relationship that we're wounded a long time ago don't push it,  you're just gonna be hurt or will be hurt in the future, every girl deserved to be respected by the guy that they love and every girl deserve to be happy with that guy and every girl deserved to be love more than they love the guy.

Well if you are the guy or in the same condition as I am. Right now I really don't know what to advice to you then, just hang in there pal.

For me this will be my last, I have love, hurt and left and vice versa so many times before, That I grew tired of loving someone that I becoming a person that doesn't care about the people around me, but when she came I felt that I was given another chance to feel love and be happy, but I didn't know that this will happen. I'm tired of being left alone, when she came I really wanted to be with her and I want her to be with me. I have given all my best and was doing all my best for her and for us. I really wish that it was all enough for her to stay and not leave me.